Loss

*** This happened Sunday, but I am just now able to post it.  Thank you all for your caring words, thoughts and prayers.



This is a terrible post to have to do.  I wish today had gone differently.  I wish today hadn't arrived so swiftly.  I wish I could go back a week in time and just remain there, blissfully unaware of what is about to happen.

I lost the baby today.

I am grief-stricken by it.  Wishing there weren't so many people to tell.  But, thankful there are so many to help raise me up out of the grief.

I will be ok.  We all will.  But, it is a terrible loss to endure.

Please forgive me if I am unable to speak about it for a while.  I can't fathom what to say.

I hate seeing my husband grieve.

I hate seeing the sadness in Cooper's eyes.

I hate every cramp I am experiencing, reminding me what is happening.

I am thankful for all the friends and family trying to help us through this.

We will be ok.  I will be ok.  But it feels like such a heartbreak.  How does one get over the love of a being so tiny and unknown?  I will never hold this child in my earthly arms.  Will never look into the eyes of this baby.  But, I am attached forever.  This baby is ours and I know we will meet again. 


I love you sweetheart.

Psalm 34:18  The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.


~abby