Sometimes I feel like parents only talk about the joys of being a parent. We don't want to admit that being a parent can be really challenging. It isn't all sunshine and rainbows. Don't get me wrong, my boys are the joy of my days. They are incredibly entertaining and generous with their smiles and giggles. Oh my, are they funny. Hilarious. The two of them get along pretty well, and Carter is becoming more and more like his big brother. You can see him watching... learning... mimicking... Oh dear. So at 18 months, he is desperately trying to be JUST LIKE COOPER!
Cooper is the biggest treasure in the world. He is our first true miracle. So many things had to align themselves perfectly in order for us to bring this boy home. So many things could have gone wrong. It was a journey, a trying, stress-filled, beautiful journey.
Cooper is also our first child, which means I am making all my mistakes with him. He takes advantage, because that's what children do! I adore this boy. He also makes me crazy. Am I allowed to say that? His wit and incredible repartee afford him the luxury of keeping up with anything his mommy might have to say. He has an answer, a solution, a comment, for EVERYTHING. Everything. He also has the uncanny ability to push every button I have the the span of 30 seconds. This is a feat. I am generally such an easy-going, calm person. He can also swear like a sailor. Not something I am proud of, trust me. We are working on it. I find myself cringing when we speak to people out and about. What might he say??? You just never know.
I am not complaining. I am just reminding myself. One day, I will look back and it will seem a little hazy. A little smeared around the edges. He is 5 already! It feels so fast. I can't keep up. There is not enough time to teach him everything he needs to conquer the world. I know these boys are going to grow up to be wonders. I just have to get them there! But, I forget to enjoy the crazy some days. I need to absorb as much as I can. Laugh about it more. The laundry can wait. So can the dishes and the cleaning and the organizing. It will get done. (I have "control" issues.) I need to worry less and enjoy more.
Just reminding myself...
Let me know how you deal with your "crazy", will ya? I would love to know! (It's always nice to know you're not the only one dealing with challenges.)
Love & Laughter,
abby
Oh Abby, totally speaking to my heart here, I think its a good reminder for all moms.SLOW down. Easier said than done, but worth the effort. Soak it in, live it fully, love those babies. Stop. Hold them. Hug them. Kiss them. I need that reminder. I am tearing up, good blog. And when there are to many crazy, hair pulling days, we will plan another double date. SO.....when is that?
ReplyDeleteAmen, girl! I could use one of those any day now... Love you!!
ReplyDeleteThis is soooo true!! My crazy is a little...okay, a LOT different now! With a teen and two pre-teens, it's a completely different source of hair-pulling! I don't think I do a very good job most days! I just have to remind myself that I cannot make them into the boys they need to be...at this point, I have poured endless hours into them and am just trying to be a guiding source. Now, I get to watch them make the sometimes-painful-wrong-choices and sometimes-rewarding-right-choices!
ReplyDeletePray over their lives everyday...dedicate their lives to God and ask Him to help you with the rest! Marriage is hard work...parenting is exhausting work! Too bad neither come with exact instruction manuals. This is where trusting God comes into play, again! Notice how that keeps coming up??
by the way...I think you're a great mom!! :)
I've noticed my children have an uncanny ability to push me right to my very limits and then do something so completely sweet that I forget all about it.
ReplyDeleteParenting is definitely one heck of a roller coaster ride!